So far..

... I think I am finally done seeing all of what life has had to offer me, these last have sucked monkey balls beyond recognition. I think the reason I am having trouble sleeping now is that, I have not found someone to bounce off of. I though it would be easy to find, am I looking in the wrong places? Or is it just that I am not trying hard enough?

Should I lose those extra pounds and hope to Jeabuz that I wont be as invisible to people as I always have been?

What ever it is, I would get a sign. I know god isn't supposed to give me these signs because of past arguments [e.i. I am a Taoist] But hell, not even DAD [Charles Shoults] can help me out with this. I'm still on my own; their is still so much to do, and I don't have enough time to finish...