Ahhh flipping through the channels,
tired of my life. Its too weird to be here...
I've become bland, grey.... wait even grey has a personality... more than mine... i want to pain the world many colors so i can finally see.. and stop crying because i cry more than usual now a days... and have no clue as to why!!!!
IM SO WEAK!
I have a GREAT boyfriend.... i don't deserve him.
i have a comfortable life for now.. but still their are those pills i take to change my feelings. make them seem what they are not; so i can fit into this mold i have unhappily made for myself.
I don't want to be wild... and i am human, i do get tired.. i like to be myself... i wish i could just flow like the art i paint... or the occasional words i spill on pages.
sometimes i wish i knew who i was... i don't care what anyone thinks about it but-- man, when you have a shit day and someone calls you a "...ugly and stinky ass bitch..." they don't help you out much.. they probably could be the reason that you drag the metal across the skin and then laugh in ecstasy as the world becomes yours

UP nExT... \/

I have to read "in cold blood" by Truman Capote for a class discussion thing.
looking at the murderers.. kinda turned me on XD
well anyways..

thanksgiving was pathetic, friends need to stop complaining to me. I AM NOT GOD!
AND I HAVE FALLEN IN LOVE WITH GRAFFITI!!!! :)

PSAT Testing

UGH!? today is PSAT testing and all of the upper classment(i.e. seniors) are going either to Denny's or IHOP... and im stuck here. Broke XD

anyways. im going to be alone in the theatre for about 2 hours.. what a drag!
Well thats all i feel like writing XD
(PS>>> harry potter your now accepted into my friends! lol)
KEEP ANDREW OUT! lol

Complaining

Well I feel like complaining but am too tired to do so. ehhh I need to talk to William, Luis, and avoid harry potter. XD

You heard that JOE!

Anyways.. I am going to run for princess for this years homecoming. Quite Frankly i have no idea if i am going to win, Im doing it to get out of this horrible shell i have formed... I miss ram and leroy! well thats about all i can manage to write tonight.. im to tired to say anything else, my hands are coming off.

my life

As I was laying on my bed today, I was reflecting on my life. I just noticed how shitty and horribly planned out it was, but I am happy with it. It got me to where I am today, and it made me who I am. So what's not to like?

Anyways..... I still need to do my summer reading project and I don't feel like doing it. I know that in the end I will do it but... Ugh! I DON'T WANT TO! Well I'm tired and I have something planned for later tonight, so I'm excited. I am also a bit worried, I live more than 1 life, and well I would be deviatated if anyone from school know who I really was. It would shock me and destroy me, critisism hurts people..... Remember that.

Time

Time is off the essence... Well that is what I hear a lot.
But why is time so valuable? it is like age, a useless number. Time will only run out faster if you keep counting it. It expendable and Expandable, no limit to what you can do if you ignore it.

I laugh when people ask me my age, I am 17, I do not look or act 17, but older. yet men fear to start a relationship with me because of my age, and well women. they just flat out hate.. at least I'm doing something right =)

I do not fear death, it is a friend of time. I invite it, hoping to get a glimpse of its beautiful face... almost Adonis like =P well enough talk of this. I am tired now. I might wright a bit more later... I have no clue yet.

... sooner than i expected

well turns out i am writing sooner than i planned XD
ima write a poem

Give me my life back
you have it, and it belongs to me

Give me the strength to drag on
You took it, and it belongs to me

Give me the thoughts i longed
You used to be in them, now either get out or come back in

Give me the will to forgive
I hate you, you hurt me... and that i cannot forget

Give me the heart to let you live
I hold your life now in my hands,
I can easily let go...
The tables turned
and your ability screwd.

How does it feel to be on the other side?
Not good right?

I thought so.

Ugh.. School

I am exited to be at school again.. but am sad because my first four periods are all spent with fishies! *sigh*

Anyways.. it was an exciting day. lol
It made me smile when i saw a guy 3 times.. he is sooo cute lol.. i hve him for three classes..

Okay now some drama.. My Girlfriend has talked to me today. What another girl said about her was a complete lie.. this is the second time this chick has talked shit about my girl.. third time, i dont care if her Boy friend says, i will knock her teeth out =) well thats about all i have to report today XD

... atleast thats what i think hahah

poetry for breakfast?

Today i Feel poetic, but i have no idea why. XD well anyways when i think of a good one i'll post it. Right now i just feel like humming or trying to remember OMEGA =P

WHY???

Why is it that everytime I creat a new profile somewhere, I get called beautiful. It disgusts me that people now a days are so focused on looks. I specifically put in every new profile: "do not call me babe, sexy, baby, beautiful or any name of that nature unless I started something with you.. MY name is NEMO.. so please adress me by it."

Another thing I wonder so is, why is it that when the first day of school comes around everyone is like "why havent you called me?? you dont care about me" (starts bitching and crying).
Gosh people! I have a life, and I also see you havent made much of an effort in contacting me either. People dont give me the excuse of "I didn't have your number" , or "I didnt know when to call you"

People listen... my number is on every page I fabricate! Its never going to change from 8325335828. Same goes to my IM accounts. They are also posted everywhere.

Well now I am tired, and I would like to take a short nap.. maybe later today I will write what I did to make me tired.